The number you have dialed does not exist

When trying to think about what to talk about today I kind of had a form of writers block. Don’t you hate it when that happens? It’s like this whole wave of nothingness comes crashing down over you and you are left there staggering for breath or even worse you are carried out by the rushing rapids.

So with that in mind I decided that I would try and think about something that I could speak about that could fun and maybe spark some creativity in my head and ten it hit me…

I remembered a game that I used to play as a youngest called “Broken Telephone.” It was always such a fun game for me. I loved how the message would almost always get jammed up somewhere along the lines. Even today we play this game – be it directly or indirectly we all have to at some point or the other carry a message forward to somebody else and just how many of us actually manage to get the message across correctly? In my line of work I deal with about 2 – 300 people a day maybe at the best of times even more. The method we use to communicate with out clients in the first stage is via Letter and SMS’s and it is shocking how many people actually read there documents correctly. Roughly 1 out of 11 people phone in requesting the wrong thing because the just glance at the message without actually seeing anything of importance and assume that they know what the message is about?

Consequently we are giving each other wrong information leading to confusion and possibly in the future even mayhem. I don’t have many examples to back this up as I am just as guilty as everyone else…

It would just help everyone if we could actually get our messages across in a manor that the message did not get the opportunity to get confused and muddled for the intended parties.

Sugar and Spice --- lets try now and be nice!

What is in a baby? I mean let’s look at it more deeply than just skin and bones. I mean what a privilege it must be to be able to carry a little live around for +- 9 months and to be able to feeling that little being grow inside you!

I’m not some kind of freak or anything. I am just really amazed at all the things that take part in the generating of that little life. It’s more than just sex! Yea, sure that is where it all starts but the developing stages that happen are so incredible.

About a year ago my little brother was born and he really is a delightful little thing. It is like one of those, life after death moments where you see your life through new eyes or some jazz like that. Seeing him grow during the weeks and seeing how he develops as he goes along is like I said truly amazing. Naturally being his older brother I have this instinctive notion to be protective and what have you but babies are so amazing and adapt to the situations around them venomously well. This is where my question about what is in a baby?

Speaking for myself as things happen I am thinking about things and I question situations in my head and I assume that most people out there do basically the same as me… what about babies… do they think… surly they must but how are they thinking? What do they think about and how do they put all the pieces together. Surly there is some neuron connection taking place in their heads but in what form?

Seriously speaking I do believe that children need both parents to play active roles in their children’s lives. To me it can only be to the greater good and development of that little being. I have notices that fathers take a little less interested role of interest in their children compared to that of the mothers. Please don’t get me wrong I am not saying this about all fathers. There are definitely some great Dad’s out there and that people do what they can to make life better for themselves and their families so I am not trying to attack anyone in particular I am just stressing my believe that a growing baby needs to have that input from both parents to be able to be a well balanced individual.

Needless to say that there is ever any real measurement as to what makes a baby or even an adult in that many words as “well balanced.” It is again one of those moments where you have to really decide for your self or maybe even do some soul searching and see what is been seen about you. This is actually starting to sound like one of my earlier blogs about looking into your self and being able to like the person you are, where in reality it just might be possible that the reason that we think the way we do is because of the input we received as invents by out parents.

Saying this though feels to me as unfair to blame parents for the way that their children do turn out. Sure they brought them into the world and taught them the skills needed to go out into the world and be the people that they are but just maybe it is our destiny (not actually sure weather or not I believe in destiny) that things happen to us in the way that they do… even this does not substantiate enough of a support structure as to why there is so much negativity in some people. I try and see the good but have come across one or two people every now and then who really are just plain evil. I would like to know what makes a person so angry that he wants to destroy another human being. In some instances this makes sense but then in so many others it just does not seem fair and accurate to blame. Sure circumstances can appear tuff but surely there are other options to available before murder, theft and so forth.

What I want to go into my baby is sugar and spice and all things nice… so guess that means I’m having a girl? ;-)

This is my second attempt on trying to get some form of communication with myself going. I have this intense urge to say something intelligent but I am just so blocked. It’s like I have this crazy vortex spinning around in my head just sucking up all the loose pieces of paper. Strangely enough I often feel like I need something big to happen almost every single second of the day.

The thoughts leading me to this are that once we become ‘adults’ it’s like almost all of the fun in life is sucked out and we become drained. I don’t know how you feel but for me I really enjoy the excitement of not being able to predict how the day will unfold and having to really participate in the day’s precedence. I mean we cant be hyperactive all the time but that adventurous behavior that so many people kill off from within themselves should be explored and aloud to go all crazy.

Let me not stray to far from reality but you have to admit to yourself that there are so many people that are living from day to day; doing what they can just to get through but how many of those people are actually living life? It’s in my best interest to go crazy and wild every so often and life a little… who really wants life to pass them by?

The First blog

To start at the beginning would just be fateful but everything and everybody has to start somewhere. Each day we have people taking new beginnings and putting something or in some cases someone to rest.

For me today is one of those in between days were nothing seems to make complete sense but yet I am moving in some kind of direction. Does that make sense to you? Recently I seem to just be digging some wholes for myself and just when I think that the cement has dried some idiot comes along and helps me reopen the holes. Saying that I know that is seems a bit vague but as I go on I think that the mystery will reveal itself. The worst part of it all is that i would love to just come out straight and say exactly what it is that is bothering me but if I did that I actually think that I would just be excavating even bigger problems that have been laid to rest.

I was watching the cricket yesterday and was just thinking as South Africa kick some but how each of us end up going into different routes. I was also thinking what makes us choose the way that we do and given the opportunity would we actually change our minds from our initial choice. I think that with out a doubt I would but then on that exact same note I’m plagued by the thought that if I did change just one single thing that I have done how would my life turn out tomorrow and would it be better or would it be worse? I guess that this is more of a soul question and would have to be one of those moments where one has to look down deep at who you are. I’m not sure if I am actually opening up a can of worms though because maybe asking these questions or thinking those thoughts would actually mean that I already know the answers. So then the real question would be does that make me a good or a bad person?

I mean I would like to think that I am a good person but then so would the whole world. Does anyone ever sit there and think to themselves hey I am a bad person let me change or do we all just do an injustice to ourselves and people that we come across in life and the n just shrug it off as oh well at least it wasn’t me on the receiving side...

I guess the only way to truly know would to be to put things into perspective and provide for a confused future or chance and luck. I would rather live in a more stable world but how can things be stable when we have people killing one another for "black gold" and I think worse even people killing somebody else for R10.00!

At the end of the day I suppose that the real question or maybe rather the real test would be - can you go to bed every night and know that you will be able to look yourself in the mirror the next day and be able to know - I am a good person?!